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I couldn’t help it. Finally had some time to myself, to do whatever, and get these things in my head onto paper/screen. I’m not saying much about this one just yet.

I love maths and science, but sometimes I just want to slap the tinest particles for making life so complex, at various theorists for their godawful equalities, and sometimes I curse at the romance languages for not containing enough symbols to have one letter per concept. I love zombies, and dinosaurs. I also love ghosts, vampires, werewolves, and all those other mythological monsters that I haven’t mentioned, or had the luck to read about yet. I think sharks are fricken awesome. Lasers are amazingly awesome. I love stupid (and not so stupid) sci-fi stories. I’d love black holes but they scare the life out of me. I love Munchkin. I love tabletop pen and paper rpgs. I love books. I love comics. I love MSN. I love talking face-to-face.

I love drinking alcohol with my friends. I love going to cafes and drinking tea and eating cake with my friends. I love staying at home. I love travelling about. I love doing nothing. I love doing work. I love spending entire months planning a story. I love writing. I love drawing. I love listening to weird music. I love singing weird music. I love being able to get the entire scope of my feelings across with a word that may not even exist. I love messing around in toy stores. I love my friends. I love my family. I love my background. I love where I live. I love cooking. I love baking. I love love. I love romance. I love those little things that never seem appropriate to be discussed in public.¹ I love wanting to love. I love the fact that I have too many loved things to list.

I love it when you listen to a piece of music, and realise that you’re not depressed anymore.

1. You know what I’m talking about [↩]

I used to cut up music into TV-length bits¹ and only recently have I found them on my computer again.² I’d be happy to share them all, but a lot of them aren’t really free for distribution. I figured I could put up the Ragnarok Online cuts, as it’s simple to get your hands on the full versions of the soundtrack – just download the client, and you get the bgm in a big file!³

I can’t see how putting up these cut versions would get me into trouble,⁴ so please, do enjoy them. (You can’t download them though, sorry!)

1. Yes, I was that sad once [↩]
2. Actually, I found them on the iPod but that’s not the point. [↩]
3. At least, the last time I downloaded it, this was the case [↩]
4. However, dear Gravity, if you want them taken down just say. I don’t have the money to be fighting legal cases. [↩]

…and I still haven’t managed to grasp the concept of optimistic thinking for the whole year. Regardless, tomorrow is the so called “Blue Monday“, but I’ve promised to myself – and Facebook likes to remind me – that I will be spending it being hopelessly optimistic.¹ This WILL be done by remembering all the gushy warm fuzzy things that have happened recently, and by taking the viewpoint of ‘if it hasn’t been said, then it isn’t true’. Hurrah for ignorant bliss.

Still, I was exceedingly happy a couple of days ago. The old me is finally pulling herself away from the hopeless romantic², so I thought I would celebrate with a nice femininely coloured picture of myself with the things I love most. Do enjoy:

watch your head!

Inbetween all this writing for Physics I’ve done³ lately, I’ve seemed to forget that I have a novel to continue writing, and a community project to renew interest in. Add a sprinkle of desire to start making paper doll outfits and a spoonful of addiction to papercraft⁴ and sowing. Finally, mix in a good review of Physics, practice with maths, and electromagnetism polarisation malarky and you have yourself a tasty and filling Fefe-wants-to-do-too-much cake. Best enjoyed in a library of some sort.

Anyway, on the line of optimistic thinking; here’s to a better 9 weeks filled with more cafe sessions, student theatre, and socialising!⁵

1. This will work out, Fefe. It will work out, just give it time and don’t be so annoying, you fool. Have faith in him and wait. [↩]
2. RAH RAH AH AH AH, ROMA RO MA MA and so forth [↩]
3. It’s only like two days of NaNoWriMo Fefe, don’t be silly – even if it wasn’t as fun [↩]
4. I think it’s bad that I want to make a special Valentine’s Card to give to someone – maybe not this year, but at some point. [↩]
5. I have had my ‘reckless student’ status questioned twice already, and the term hasn’t even started. I’m a bad ‘student’ and I know it. [↩]

I wish I could say that I’ve been working on those drawings from the last post. Instead I have been pouring over an essay that is in need of more references, a lab report which is missing several diagrams and requires some application of a standard deviation somewhere, and half a booklet of questions which requires me reteaching myself fourier transforms, thermodynamics, and somehow making it through the horror that is electromagnetic geometry. Add to that some unnerving bumpy matters of the heart, Left 4 Dead 2, Discworld, Munchkin sessions, a frustratingly scary amount of snow, and the internet. You can see why I’m starting to regret all those days of slacking. How on earth am I to pass this second year? I just can’t see me achieving it at the moment.

Ah well, maybe I’ll post something up about Munchkin once I’ve figured out how to get back to university without crashing my now de-snowed car.

I really do hate the snow.